:: The truth behind the reality of life... ::

:: Sunday, September 29, 2002 ::

As I sit here in complete silence and ponder the realities that surround me, I come to find myself drifting away into utter depression. I can't understand how I got to this point in my life. The only promising thing I have realized is that my life has evolved from the rancid, convoluted series of lies that it once was. But suprisingly, I miss the adventure. Yes, it was hard, yes it was driving me crazy. But at least it was something! I have a brand new wife, and a brand new daughter. Problem is, I can't even get along with them. Six months ago I absolutely knew that married people were crazy. They always told me everything changes when you get married. They say you'll never get laid, you'll always argue, and you'll never live down your mistakes. They were fuckin retarded! Now I find myself upon that evil sea, in the same ill-fated ship as those people. Oddly enough this gorgeous looking vessel built strong and true, with nothing but the greatest of intentions, and OH-so enticing, is aptly named "Titanic." Some of the most dastardly deeds ever done in history were done with the greatest of intentions. I still ask myself why must I book passage on this boat? Why can't I call the coast guard for a rescue chopper? Why must I sit here and drown? Why??? And I answer: Because you I don't know the correct radio frequency. Where's my flash light... I still remember SOS from boy scouts...

:: SysTemRagE 2:01 AM [+] ::
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